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i'm writing a paper in the library, but not about this

Oct. 12th, 2006 | 04:54 pm
mood: energeticenergetic

"During the Civil War, President Lincoln continually faced oversight hearings in Congress. And during World War II there were a number of commissions -- the most famous conducted by then Senator Harry Truman.

Republicans have not held one hearing on the President's wartime failures."

from Harry Reid

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and one more to make up for lost time...

Aug. 3rd, 2006 | 09:50 pm

1965 – 2006

Julie and Mary, celestial bodies,
kept weaving ‘til their hands cramped
kept trying with their hard black volumes

not even by accident but
I’m reading informed accounts of terrorism, diplomacy,
the FBI, Winston Churchill reincarnated

And back to you, love via satellite,
The moon looks more Coca Cola than ever before,
breathing, static, clam shells shattered through space.

Tall weeds make a median where there is none.
Fireworks make a splash, lazy black leopard,
he has black spots against the smooth nightness,

has some jawbone, really, let’s reel in the dinero.
Upgraded gangster devices, twenty-first
century turbulence, a maniac on the floorboards,

unabashed jean jacket retro,
the first to wish for time travel
the first to take it back.

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another new one

Aug. 3rd, 2006 | 09:46 pm


at 10:20pm, so that the rain
could be Sally: a dark wig
has to scream to be heard.

More steps he won’t take,
dropping pennies
on the rocks
to make new coins.

His cell phone rings primary colors,
mismatched, had they lasted.

Sometimes Germany, Sally sings.

On the hardwood
like Ted Bundy
she sings, would you like one?

With the dogs, the cheap notes falling,
they’re each alone and sewn up.

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long time

Aug. 3rd, 2006 | 09:35 pm

for those who are concerned for my literary career, well, i have been writing, i just haven't been posting anything. i been real busy.

i got a new computer and stupidly lost my bookmarks in the process and when i set out to post this one, i couldn't even remember the actual url for my blog page. my writing these days is extremely light. my response to war, genocide, more war, more genocide, and even more war on top of that, seems to be levity about my own life and circumstances. so easy, people, most of us have it so easy.


It’s chemical, the way
the old ones

ash along your flesh
stories we tell

never had
tend to
like to

bring wine and duct tape
I need to wrap something up

and outline it in goldenrod
we’ve been four out of five
for most of the night

I won’t say it but
I swear I just heard
electric guitar sneak into the bolero
it’s not fair
that you have to go away
as they say
when the darkness does

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Save the Internet - this is really important!

May. 11th, 2006 | 09:41 pm

Read about it here:

Sign up your own blog, sign petition, etc:

From Save the Internet website:
Congress is pushing a law that would abandon the Internet's First Amendment -- a principle called Network Neutrality that prevents companies like AT&T, Verizon and Comcast from deciding which Web sites work best for you -- based on what site pays them the most. If the public doesn't speak up now, our elected officials will cave to a multi-million dollar lobbying campaign.

Net Neutrality allows everyone to compete on a level playing field and is the reason that the Internet is a force for economic innovation, civic participation and free speech. If the public doesn't speak up now, Congress will cave to a multi-million dollar lobbying campaign by telephone and cable companies that want to decide what you do, where you go, and what you watch online.

This isn't just speculation -- we've seen what happens when the Internet's gatekeepers get too much control. Last year, Telus -- Canada's version of AT&T -- blocked their Internet customers from visiting a Web site sympathetic to workers with whom the company was having a dispute. And Madison River, a North Carolina ISP, blocked its customers from using competing Internet phone services.

How would the gutting of Network Neutrality affect you?

* Google users—Another search engine could pay dominant Internet providers like AT&T to guarantee the competing search engine opens faster than Google on your computer.
* Innovators with the "next big idea"—Startups and entrepreneurs will be muscled out of the marketplace by big corporations that pay Internet providers for dominant placing on the Web. The little guy will be left in the "slow lane" with inferior Internet service, unable to compete.
* Ipod listeners—A company like Comcast could slow access to iTunes, steering you to a higher-priced music service that it owned.
* Political groups—Political organizing could be slowed by a handful of dominant Internet providers who ask advocacy groups to pay "protection money" for their websites and online features to work correctly.
* Nonprofits—A charity's website could open at snail-speed, and online contributions could grind to a halt, if nonprofits can't pay dominant Internet providers for access to "the fast lane" of Internet service.
* Online purchasers—Companies could pay Internet providers to guarantee their online sales process faster than competitors with lower prices—distorting your choice as a consumer.
* Small businesses and tele-commuters—When Internet companies like AT&T favor their own services, you won't be able to choose more affordable providers for online video, teleconferencing, Internet phone calls, and software that connects your home computer to your office.
* Parents and retirees—Your choices as a consumer could be controlled by your Internet provider, steering you to their preferred services for online banking, health care information, sending photos, planning vacations, etc.
* Bloggers—Costs will skyrocket to post and share video and audio clips—silencing citizen journalists and putting more power in the hands of a few corporate-owned media outlets.

Blocking Innovation

Corporate control of the Web would reduce your choices and stifle the spread of innovative and independent ideas that we've come to expect online. It would throw the digital revolution into reverse. Internet gatekeepers are already discriminating against Web sites and services they don't like:

* In 2004, North Carolina ISP Madison River blocked their DSL customers from using any rival Web-based phone service.

* In 2005, Canada's telephone giant Telus blocked customers from visiting a Web site sympathetic to the Telecommunications Workers Union during a contentious labor dispute.

* Shaw, a major Canadian cable, internet, and telephone service company, intentionally downgrades the "quality and reliability" of competing Internet-phone services that their customers might choose -- driving customers to their own phone services not through better services, but by rigging the marketplace.

* In April, Time Warner's AOL blocked all emails that mentioned www.dearaol.com -- an advocacy campaign opposing the company's pay-to-send e-mail scheme.

This is just the beginning. Cable and telco giants want to eliminate the Internet's open road in favor of a tollway that protects their status quo while stifling new ideas and innovation. If they get their way, they'll shut down the free flow of information and dictate how you use the Internet.

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early thoughts on identity

Apr. 16th, 2006 | 11:25 am

A story from my uncle about his daughter:

just wanted to share the profound statement that my deep-thinking kindergardener Eliana made tonight (and I quote ~ half the charm is in the way she puts it to me):

"Dad…I know you know this, but…I'm me and you're not me, so I'm aware of me."

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it's almost funny, at this point

Mar. 15th, 2006 | 08:01 pm

according to amnesty international letter 3.11.2006:

"Congress recently voted overwhelming to ban torture. ...Unfortunately, when President Bush signed the bill, he unilaterally added a provision that gave himself permission as commander-in-chief to disregard the ban on torture whenever he deems it necessary."

amnesty international is undertaking a huge campaign against US torture. you can check it out and become an AI member on their website.


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what's going on

Feb. 26th, 2006 | 11:57 am
mood: relaxedrelaxed

recent ailments:
a strange pain in my right leg when i've been sitting too long, dry skin, insomnia, gradual but unwanted weight gain, cravings for caffeinated diet soda, unexpected mood swings.
what is wrong with me, gentle readers? is this cancer? pregnancy? no, it's graduate school.

reading James Ellroy, Allen Ginsberg, Georges Bataille, Walt Whitman, and a bunch of people you've probably never heard of.

still writing poems.

experiencing financial strain. will accept donations of food and clothing.

enjoying this colder rainier Sunday.

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this new assignment will make me a homicidal maniac?

Feb. 12th, 2006 | 01:16 am

it is best to wait until after dark to start writing crime fiction. i just wrote the 3 sickest pages of my whole life. i was sober too, which is extra disturbing. and it's just getting started, because i need 12-15 pages to turn in a few weeks from now.

i cannot express how simultaneously sick and powerful it feels to create something so wrong.

also, very scary to write fiction, because i haven't done it before.

my friends Amy and Thomas just opened a new cafe in the East Lake neighborhood of Oakland. One block past the Parkway Theatre @ 1918 Park Boulevard. www.prismcafe.com

they have great organic food and are OPEN LATE, people, LATER than most places in Oakland. they also serve BEER and WINE at all times. check it out. you'll see me there, making myself right at home, putting my feet up on the coffee table, etc.

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updates to this web journal

Jan. 14th, 2006 | 08:46 pm
mood: geekygeeky

hey there.
i removed some of the poems/entries from the past few months, because i'm trying to get these poems published. and most editors don't take kindly to stuff being broadcast on the www simultaneously. don't worry, though, i'm sure there'll be something new any day now. i've had such horrible luck the past 2 years with submissions, so cross your fingers. 90% of the time, i heard nothing back at all, not even a tangible rejection, just email or snail mail silence. if i have to enter another NR (no response) on my spreadsheet...i can't even talk about it.

so yeah, i'm just indoors tonight drinking wine, ass-bonding with my desk chair, and i just sent some of my newest stuff off to 3 different journals. it's been a real literary day. earlier i had an online meeting with the other Monday Night editors to review our submissions for issue #5 (5 years - holy crap). which was great fun. almost as much fun to gush about the good writing as it is to make fun of the bad. why can't i get paid for doing this?

so how is everyone? who is reading this rambling egocentric thing these days, anyway? comments, por favor! and happy new year, if i haven't seen you yet.

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